to Jesus, Whom i love

"Jesus, You alone will be my first love." may i love You so much that is seems that i hate everyone else. i look forward to the day that You will make heaven and earth one. "God, i want to dream again - take me where i've never been - i want to go there - this time i'm not scared."

these are the layers of my heart that i know of: first, the layer that requires no introspection - that i go about my business not thinking of You; second, that i am cynical and do not trust You; third, (this is as deep as i can go - it scares me that You can go further) that i love You and want to trust You. therefore, God, i want You to peel off the outer hard layers. You have told me that it will sting, but that it will be good. You have given me a heart of flesh - may i not harden it. You left the decision up to me, and i choose to right our relationship rather than keep myself from a little pain.

because You love me, may i love myself. this is my special request: that i may finish my project - You know what it is - by this time next year, and may i run the disney marathon in 2010.

may i pray without ceasing. may i never stop believing. may i always be as a little child. may we always hope and trust in You. take away M's cynicism. heal H. may i give D to You. give L direction. save W once again. open the eyes of S. may E's dreams come true, and may she be patient. thank You for J - bless her and may i not be jealous of her when You do. heal A's teeth and shoulder/arm. help G to pursue her passion. may P be healthy and happy. may my family believe and trust You. may we love life. may You kingdom come!